Creatures of Habit

It occurred to me today that I am a creature of habit. I do the exact same thing every day. I wake up at the exact same time. I go to get breakfast at the exact same deli every morning. I do the same thing every day at work. I go home and do the same thing on each respective day of the week. I go home and cook dinner and then do my Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday stuff... Maybe it's time to break out of my daily routine.

Every day I go home and do the same thing first. I cook dinner the second I get in the door. After dinner is cooked, I watch Wheel of Fortune. It's a great show and keeps me thinking. I've watched it almost everyday for the last 2 years or so. Then after that it varies depending on the day. Monday is "The Bachelor" night. I play with my daughter and watch "The Bachelor." Jas goes to bed at 9 and after that I pick up all of the mess she made and then stay up flipping through channels and doing nothing. Tuesday is my cleaning and errands night. After dinner and "Wheel," I do laundry, go grocery shopping, and pretty much do whatever house cleaning I can. Wednesday is "Lost" night and "South Park" night. It's also when "Project Runway" is on. Which I record while I'm watching "South Park." Thursday, I just cook and clean and play with Jas. If I want to get out without her, Thursday would be the night because my father can watch her. Friday is a little bit more free. I don't always watch "Wheel" on Friday and I'll oftentimes go out with my Fiance, my daughter, and sometimes his daughter unless his ex has her that weekend. My weekends are centered around my daughter.

Now I told you all of that in the hope that I get some kind of insight from my few readers on what to do other than my normal routine. I find that after a month or so of the same thing I just get tired and it starts to wear on me. Unfortunately, I don't know what else to do with myself. When my ex takes Jas for his time each month, I am even more lost.

There are times when I sit in my car outside of my apartment and just try to get some time to breathe and relax. Then I go inside and start my same routine. I hope that others will relate to this and understand. It wears on me and I need a break but I'm at a loss of what to do. I think that any unhappiness I have in my life can be thwarted with breaking out of the routine once in a while and just having fun. Yes, there is some unhappiness at times. I'm generally a positive person and am happy most of the time. It's just the rebel in me that needs a break from the mommy routine once in a while.

I hope that everyone reading this understands and maybe this has helped you to break away from your daily routine.